in sadness.

so i got home from school today for the summer. i was driving home and the song "the chain" by ingrid michaelson came on and i started crying. i miss my roommates so much already. meredith and addie, namely. when i got home i did some unpacking, moved my room around and went to home depot to get a new carpet. a new bed is being shipped to my house, i'm thrilled over this. i miss adeline so much. april came over earlier and we caught up, it was nice to see her. but the whole time i was talking about adeline, and meredith, and the love nest, and being in delhi, and loving my life. and i just get so sad thinking about how its actually over. there is really no more love nest. no more fantome opening our doors and walking around our kitchen, flickering the lights or running up and down the stairs. no more amber to have to clean up after. no more needing to hide my dog from my landlord. no more massages from meredith and french braids from addie. no more walking around naked showing people my butt. i dont get to hear from meredith how she has been sitting in my room smoking when im in class, no more notes left for me on my desk either. no more blasting rusted root throughout the house. no more snufalufagus or escargot. no more zombie fish and no more nigger jesus and black santa. or water snails. no more holding hands on campus or driving through town telling everyone they have poop on their butts. no more clock that stopped on 4:20 by itself. no more bunny shit in my toes (although that's a plus...) no more sending wiggles in to wake up them two. no more fat girl uggs and drinking budweiser tall boys every night. i'm going to miss it so much. i miss it so much already. i want to come home from work and see my loves on the couches. i want to smoke my bong in my pod and burn cookie brownies one more time. i wanna jump on addie's back and sing william tell overture running around the house! i want to scream obsurdities and have no one be taken back at all by it. i want to tell everyone they suck and they're stupid. i want to stop being redundant but i just miss it so much.